Firstly, if you haven’t read last week’s blog about how I wanted to break up with my business, read it now. Everything that follows will make sense.
I was delighted and surprised by the response my blog yielded.
I had no expectation when I wrote it. It wasn’t pre-planned, like, “Ooh, this will be a good one.” In fact, I felt a little scared when I pressed send because it was vulnerable. There are layers of vulnerability and this layer was pretty deep. In that moment, I wrote from the heart and there were moments where my fingers couldn’t keep up with my thoughts. A little like now actually. That’s always a good sign.
I received encouragement that brought me to tears, invitations from people to talk with them, a lot of personal phone numbers from people I don’t know at all, which felt like a reflection of the intimacy I had shared so freely, advice, and comments like “Me too, and I didn’t have the courage to say it out loud.”
I hadn’t asked for anything specifically and yet here I was receiving so much.
I found myself writing in my journal that I want my programs to fill like that. Effortless and with no expectations.
To go back to my heart for a moment, I truly believe that I am being asked to step into my self belief more than ever before. After having invested a lot of money in a mastermind, earlier this year, to learn branding and marketing from “the pros,” and I learned a lot, I am coming to the realization that I am the pro of my brand. Yes, there are incredibly important tools I can learn to accelerate my growth. The ultimate growth-builder, however, is my voice inside. Because, guess what? One of my most important take-aways from my mastermind experience, of which I have done several, this just happened to be the most expensive, is that there is no one way to grow a business. There is no prescriptive formula that says if you follow steps 1 through 3, you will yield 4.
Look, I could have told you this before I started my mastermind. In a way, it’s common sense.
There is something about it that rings more true now, that I understand at a cellular level. If you’re like me, you’ve asked yourself, “When is this going to become what I want it to be?” “Why am I not there yet?” “What are they doing that I’m not?” etc. I thought I needed to know marketing strategies from the pros to make it.
What I really need to know is how to listen to, and honor, my exquisite voice inside. And, then pair her with some tools I’ve acquired along the way. NOT the other way around.
The amount of messages I received were special not only because I was deeply honest, but because of the subject matter around which I was so honest. I appreciate that I was able to open up space around this topic for women feeling the same way.
In the spirit of receiving, and realizing my vulnerability became a vehicle for expansion and support, today, I received two gifts.
Firstly, at my monthly Polka Dot Powerhouse Meeting (check us out if you haven’t already), I received our monthly award, Nike, The Goddess of Victory. Nike is passed from sister to sister. My friend, Eileen Scardina, was awarded it last month, this month she passed it to me, and next month I will have the honor of passing it along to another woman.
There is no more perfect gift for me right now than the Goddess of Victory. Eileen mentioned the adversity I have been facing, as well as my care and compassion, and I just smiled so big when she locked eyes with me because this gift was exactly what my soul was craving. Thank you for seeing me, Eileen.
Straight after that meeting, I had a call with a lady called Jaime, who reached out to me on FB after last week’s blog and said, “I know where you are. I’ve been there. I want to help you.” We didn’t know each other at all. When we hopped on the phone Jaime explained that she never sends messages like the one she did to me, but in this instance felt compelled to.
Jaime has an extensive background in corporate management and strategy and now applies that expertise to solopreneurs, among other things. Jaime gave me the gift of belief. Even though I was a wide open yes to our conversation, I was slightly skeptical she might sell me something! She didn’t. She assured me of my confidence and passion and the clarity of my message. I needed to hear that. Jaime also reminded me that what I’m experiencing is the hallmark of entrepreneurship and most of us quit 3 feet before the finish line because we can’t take it anymore. I’m in a big up-level and my muscle memory is pretty new in this area because there are all kinds of up-levels, big and small, and this is by far the biggest I’ve ever experienced so it’s mostly unfamiliar. No wonder I’m feeling unsure.
So, after receiving Goddess Nike and some stellar coaching from a woman with no skin in my game, I know for sure that deep honesty yields support, if we are willing to see it that way.
I could have read the comments differently. I could have cringed at the advice, rejected the support because “I don’t even know them,” felt cynical and thought, “what’s in it for them?,” felt misunderstood etc., and looked what I would have missed out on.
As Jaime said, and I completely agree with, It’s all about our energy.
Let this be inspiration to share your truth. What’s waiting on the other side is magical.
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In honor of your courage and mine,
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